I watched INTERVENTION on TV for the first time and two weeks later I still have the urge to throw the sofa through the television. What really kicked my butt was watching how deadly the enabling and care taking was and knowing just how much of it I have done in my life. I am totally and absolutely more comfortable being a drunk and belligerent abusive person and trying to change that than I am being somebody that is abusing somebody else in order to be comfortable and make myself feel OK. I always justify myself by saying that the other person will feel so much better if they just did things my way because I have their best interests at heart. Those last couple of statements prove beyond a shadow of a doubt that honesty can be undignified. And so can I. Some parts of me make me want to puke.
Al-Anon...Here I come.
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